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[30 Dec 2009|04:34pm] My journal is now private. Privacy and artistic freedom mean nothing to some people. Trust no one. 2 comments go.

Poor Heath [30 Jan 2008|12:11pm] I was just as shocked as everyone when I heard Heath Ledger died, and my first question was "How?" What bothers me is that the story is not totally adding up for me. If it were a murder and not an "accidental death", I have no idea who would want Heath dead and why, but I do know that if it were a murder and still has yet to be deemed a murder, it would have to be from somebody very, very high up (i.e Hunter S. Thompson's "suicide" and Princess Diana's "car accident"). 1. The housekeeper heard him snoring in his room when she went into his room to change a lightbulb. About an hour or 2 later, his masseuse tried waking him up and his body was cold. 2. The first, second, and THIRD phone calls made were not to the ambulance, but to Mary-Kate Olsen who is on the other side of the country. According to the E News crawl, police have no plans to question her. I don't know whether she would be involved in the murder or not, but I do know that it should be STANDARD police procedure to question her if she was called 3 seperate times, all under a minute each, before the ambulance was ever called. 3. The media has been making a huge deal about a rolled up $20 bill. Now if I had Heath's money, I'd be using a $100 bill to snort my drugs, but let's go ahead and ignore the dollar amount for now, only because it isn't something a non-druggie would consider to be suspicious. This rolled up bill was found near Heath's bed and was never tested positive for drugs. Also, no illegal drugs were found at the apartment... so why the hell was there a rolled up $20 bill? To poorly IMPLY a drug overdose, perhaps? What the hell are we supposed to believe here anyway? Did he do a lot of blow, somehow manage to fall asleep afterward, and THEN die? 4. The media also makes a big deal of the fact that there were multiple BOTTLES of prescription pills for anxiety and sleeplessness all over the room, whereas the initial report said the pills were scattered around. So the media heavily implied-- without ever really directly stating it-- that his death must have been an accidental overdose because there was no evidence it was a suicide, but the autopsy results were inconclusive. I'm no forensic scientist, but I would think that if I went into a cadaver looking for something specific, it would probably be easier to find than all the little details that autopsies always reveal. The fact that it was inconclusive baffles me... well then, why don't they report on what they DID learn from the autopsy?! We're now waiting on a toxicology test that I hear takes between 10 days and 6 weeks. Plenty of time to come up with a better story. PLENTY. I don't know who would have a motive to kill Heath Ledger, or why, but I do know that both suicide and accidental death are not making sense to me. Justice for Heath! 1 comment go.

Random Thoughts About Working [15 Jan 2008|11:26am] When I'm at work (or during any other equally unwanted contact) I sometimes trip over my own bullshit. I'll start saying something I don't actually believe like, "It was great meeting you" or "I agree, ______ is very important to talk about right now (the blank being 'recycling', 'exercise', 'football' or something just as trivial to me)." I know that there's a HUGE difference between the way the world actually works and how I want it to work. I know that saying encouraging bullshit with a smile is part of my job in working in television, but sometimes the things that come out of my mouth are just such meaningless tripe that I get lost in the middle of what I was saying because I'm thinking to myself what a load of crap it is, then I start jumbling my words because I'm contemplating one thing but saying something entirely different, then I don't even remember what lie I was trying to sell this person in the first place. So frustrating. Is that normal? I don't even care if that's normal or not, the point is that ideally I should be able to just say what I'm really thinking and not have to make up lies... I'm not even a good liar! I know life is not easy for anyone, but I would think it would be a hell of a lot easier if I didn't believe even a quarter of what I believe now. I can't be convinced that school, work, government, military, corporate monopolies, or compassion in spite of abuse is a good thing. I can't be convinced that the system is not specifically structured to oppress the people by keeping them as heavily distracted as possible. It's difficult to be myself in a world that quite literally believes the polar opposites of everything I believe, but I can't change who I am. I can learn to be more tolerant (and probably should), but it won't ever stop me from being me. I'm still trying to figure out how exactly I'm supposed to be able to live with all this bullshit on a daily basis. So far, my plan seems to be working but I still have a long ways to go... I'd estimate 7 or 10 years. I'm convinced that my only means of breaking free and not only living by, but MAKING MY OWN RULES, can only be achieved through business ownership. I don't want Mickey Mouse on my paychecks forever, I want to be able to sign my own checks. Work, to me, is no different from slavery. I'm aware that work pays you to be there, but the fact that we need to work to have any power [i.e. money] makes it slavery. I wake up and put on my business-casual slave clothes, work for the machine and assist in their spread of distraction, come home and get out of my slave clothes, and I get money in my account at the end of the week that will go quickly because money is necessary for fucking EVERYTHING, and that keeps me going back to work for the machine in a vicious cycle. Work owns me, work owns you, and that is why it is SLAVERY. I want to liberate myself by being a business owner, but I would consider myself to be more of a Robin Hood type figure than another slave driver. Yes, I would have a business in which I pay friends (not "employees") to assist in running that business, but I'll be doing it out of my limited compassion. It will be an environment where we all work together for the common goal of making money to get by and enjoying life in the process. So I wouldn't be owning slaves, I'd be creating an escape for me and my friends by allowing them to receive money from someone they know and can trust, rather than a faceless corporation with a mysterious benefactor that you will never, ever meet. Some may see this is no different than just owning a business and having employees, but it IS different because anyone that has worked on both sides of the spectrum can tell you that there is an entirely different vibe from working for a private business rather than a corporate one. Not to say private businesses are all good, because obviously that cannot be true, but I'm saying that MINE will be different. To change the system, you need to be a part of it first. Every time I get depressed in school or work or whatever, thinking to myself that this is not where I want to be or what I want to be doing, I think to myself, "Well, what WOULD you rather do? If you could do what you wanted, what would that be?" I always have the same vision every single time; I wake up in the morning and step outside, and I smile because it's yet another gorgeous day in The Netherlands... the kind of day that feels like nothing can bring you down. Then I grab a pastry from a nearby Dutch bakery and get in my modest little boat, which is docked in the canal directly in front of my house. I get in, light up a fat one, and leisurely cruise down the canal for a few blocks until I get to MY coffeeshop, which is undeniably mine because of the big, bold letters reading "FLUX" above the door. I open up and start brewing some coffee as my other 2 friends (not employees) arrive. The rest of the day is a delightful blur of meeting and interacting with people from all over the world, filling up pint glasses for them with Grolsch, weighing out nugs of our Cannabis Cup-winning flavor known as 'The Cure For Insomnia' for my guests, bringing out their tapa orders, pointing to the sign behind me that states "If you want wine, go to France" for anybody who requests wine, smoking fatties periodically and rolling them up for people who are unable to do so, and just enjoying the simple parts of life: good food, good beer, good weed, and good people. If it's a slower day, I confide in my friends to take care of the place and head off in my boat to who knows where. Simplicity, leisurely, and yet I make bank every single day to where I never have to give much of a second thought to money. Ahhhh, I'm so relaxed just thinking about it.... Well, only 10 years left. 4 comments go.

[04 Jan 2008|12:24pm] San Francisco  is total anarchy right now. There's a huge, violent storm going on and all over the city there's floods, debris in the street, trees fallen in the road or on parked cars, loss of power all over the bay area, broken traffic lights... shit, the wind is so bad that it knocked the scaffolding off a building under contruction and in turn got that street shut down. It's seriously nuts, I don't think I've ever experienced a storm like this before. I mean, I refuse to own an umbrella because I think it's too sensitizing to get so worked up over water falling from the clouds, but it's raining HARD. I can't walk outside like normal like I usually do in the rain because there's such a high volume of rain at really high speeds with wind in every direction. It's seriously crazy... I'm waiting for a building to get knocked over so as to incite the riots and looting. go.

The Anticipated Review of 'American' Absinthe [24 Dec 2007|12:23pm] I don't know if there were thousands of people out there like me who were wondering whether or not if it is true that the absinthe now available in the United States is not as good a European absinthe, but that is a question I have definitely been wondering about ever since absinthe prohibition was repealed in the US. A little over a month ago, Anthony Bourdain told me that the absinthe in the US was "neutered absinthe" and that it doesn't contain the same amount of thujone as Euro brands, but I've also read conflicting reviews from reporters on the internet who have most likely never had real absinthe before trying the brands in the US who say it contains the same amount of thujone. I was in a store the other day that had Lucid, a French brand that comes in a black bottle with green eyes on it, and it cost $75. Now for me, it doesn't make any sense to go to a store and pay that much money for a bottle of absinthe at the store that you don't even know if it's the real deal or not and it would make more sense to pay the same price (shipping included) to get a bottle straight from Europe that you know is good. Well I went to my favorite store in the world yesterday-- BevMo, which is like my temple along with the cannabis dispensaries-- and I came across a bottle of Lucid for $66, making it officially cheaper to purchase it in store than to order online; so I took the risk. I put it to the test last night to finally know for sure if absinthe is really, truly available in US stores now. Of course I did the proper method with an absinthe spoon, sugar cube, and cold water (directions for this are also on the back of the bottle); 3 glasses later, I can now attest, as somebody more than  familiar with all kinds of absinthes from all over the world (and I have the scars to prove it, lol), the following can be said about Lucid brand absinthe: It smells like absinthe.   It tastes like absinthe, but doesn't have half as much bite as the real thing. Absinthe is sort of like cocaine in that if you put some absinthe on your finger and put it on your gums, your gums will tingle and go a little numb and it will be very distinct. To give an example of how 'watered down' the taste is, rubbing some in my gums did not really cause a sensation.   The alcohol content is good for the alcohol buzz that comes from absinthe.   IF there was any thujone in it, it had to be an extremely minute amount because I only felt the alcohol and no thujone effects. I've had many brands highly concentrated with thujone, including European Jagermeister made with wormwood (which I suppose should be legal in the US very soon then? It better be!), and liquors made with a lot of thujone have a distinctive effect. Thujone is a drug all it's own and needs to be experienced to be understood, but the best I can describe it (because I've done a fair amount of drugs in my day) is it gives the ecstasy-like feeling of happiness and body sensitivity, the laid back feeling associated with pot or beer, sometimes the cocaine-esque mentality of wanting to get out and do stuff and being restless, and-- if you have enough-- a feeling similar to mushrooms which (just like mushrooms) can give you pleasant or peculiar (I wouldn't say un-pleasant) hallucinations if you have between 3 and 5 glasses of GOOD stuff. Lucid didn't have any of those, except the laid back feeling which I would associate more with the alcohol content and not from thujone. So is absinthe available in the States as good as European kinds? The answer is a simple "hell fucking no", and I would suggest www.absinth24.net to get the good stuff. go.

S. 1959- Violent Radicalization and Homegrown Terrorism Prevention Act [18 Dec 2007|01:54pm] An open letter to Nancy Pelosi (because I'm scared to actually send it and have something unpleasant show up at my door to take me away): Dear Nancy Pelosi, I don't believe you care about the American people at all. Perhaps if you held up your end of the deal (we elected you because you said you'd stop the war, remember?), I may think otherwise; but alas, I DO NOT TRUST YOU. If you truly do care, or even care to humor me and the American people (you know, PRETEND to care a little), then DO NOT ALLOW S. 1959 Violent Radicalization and Homegrown Terrorism Prevention Act to pass, as it is UNCONSTITUTIONAL. I'm not sure if you are familiar with the United States Constitution, but it's this great piece of paper that our country was founded upon that you and your politician cronies have been using as toilet paper lately. This despicable act, if passed,  will bring upon our country the DEATH OF THE FREEDOM OF SPEECH, as guaranteed to us by the FIRST Amendment of the United States Constitution. You know why it's the First Amendment? Because it's the most important one. Under this act, it would be an arrestable offense to write my own PERSONAL opinions on the war or ANY government organization on my blog, which is entirely unfair and unwarranted. If this law were passed before you ran for Speaker of the House, you would have been imprisoned for criticizing the Bush administration and the Iraq war and wouldn't be the one to receive this message from me today. Show some gratitude for the people that put you into office. Please Congresswoman Pelosi, put your foot down on this unconstitutional bill and don't allow it to pass. Do your job in listening to the demands of the American people. Thank you for your time (if of course you actually read this personally, which I wouldn't believe for a second). -R, a very concerned American citizen If any of you have the balls to write Congress without fear of being blacklisted and/or incarcerated, please DO IT. This bill IS facism and it needs to be stopped! Please spread the word. go.

National Manipulation: Book of Lies [17 Dec 2007|11:53am] I'm so fed up with all these posters, billboard, and commercials all over the place promoting the disinforming sequel to "National Treasure". These posters and commercials are literally SMOTHERED in Illuminati symbolism, especially the eye of providence above the pyramid. The first film claims the founding fathers invented the symbol of the eye above the pyramid and that they put it on the US currency as a clue to some worldwide trasure hunt. While everyone should know that movie is entirely fictiocious, people don't realize the FACTS they put in are lies too! The founding fathers DID NOT invent the pyramid and the eye, it's an Illuminati symbol that's OLDER THAN CHRIST BY AS MUCH AS 4,000 YEARS! In fact, it wasn't on US currency until the year 1934 when FDR put it there with the latin term "Novus Ordo Seclorum", which he claimed means 'New Deal of the Ages', but actually means "New [Secular] World Order." In fact, in the first movie, there's a part where they're in a gift shop where 2 of the books for sale by the register are "The Secret Architechture of Our Nation's Capital" and "Secret Symbols of the Dollar Bill"... which are about the TRUTH that Hollywood is trying to disinform people about. Wonder why the capital building is on the poster for the new movie? Look it up on Google maps and tilt your head to the right, and you'll notice the streets form an owl on top of a pyramid with the Capitol building in "the belly of the beast". So that's the gist of what those 2 books are about, the movie is trying to point people in the wrong direction. Sometimes I hate the fact that I work for ABC/Disney Corporation, but then I remember how kickass it'll look on my resume forever. go.

Everybody Talk About Rock Music [15 Dec 2007|10:47am] Rock is not just about how the music sounds, it has to have the matching mentality to really be considered rock. All genres have values attatched to them. Pop values don't discriminate whether artists write their own music or not; in fact, it's pretty much extra credit to write your own music in the pop world, but nobody thinks less if a pop artist focuses on their vocal talent as opposed to writing talent. It's important to note that all musicians are different and some can sing, some can write, and some can even do both. Talent is talent, and it doesn't technically matter which of the talents one posesses (unless of course they suck at it). The exception is rock. Rock values dictate the importance of writing one's own music because rock is supposed to be a message from the heart, and having someone else write your rock song entirely defeats the purpose. Does rock music need to be angry? While I would personally prefer it, the answer is no, it does not need to be angry... but, rock music absolutely must have at least at least a moderate note of aggression. I don't mean screaming and curse words (though it's a plus if the band wants to make no mistake they they are indeed a rock band), I'm talking about the overall tone of the music. Slow songs are acceptable now and then for most every band, just as long as it does not comprise the great majority of their works. Rock music needs to instill in the listener at least a little bit of tension, and it needs to be noticeable. The tension is the most important part of rock because that is the vessel for the emotions of angst and confliction to be transmitted from the artist to the listener. It's not a question of like or dislike, the message itself doesn't always matter (but it can't be about something too poppy and sugarcoated), what makes rock music rock music is that tension where the listener feels what the artist felt. Drums, bass, and electric guitar are the most sure-fire way of getting that tension across to the listener. I don't give a fuck how good an artist is with an acoustic guitar, because if they're a true rock artist, they'll write and record a badass song with electric guitar first and come out with an acoustic version later if it's that important to them. Acoustic guitar has an emotion all it's own and conflicts with the tension aspect of rock. Acoustic guitar is slow-paced and emotional... it has no place in rock music because of it's ability to entirely alter the message and tone of a song. I'm not saying acoustic guitar is not music, I'm saying anything involving acoustic guitar needs to be stripped of the "rock" label if it currently contains that false label. If you care so goddamn much about getting your message across by means of acoustic guitar, you're a musician (maybe even an artist) but NOT a rock musician. If acoustic guitar has more meaning to you than electric guitar, you are not allowed to call yourself a rockstar if you desire to be taken seriously in the rock community because you are a fucking POP artist and true rockers are never fooled. Another rock value is that the band always comes first, and the solo artist comes second. Being a solo artist first and finding a band to play behind you to give you "rock credibility" is a slap in the face to rock. An example of how powerful having a band is can be demonstrated by John Ondrasik who called himself "Five For Fighting" because he thought it would give him more credibility if he sounded like a band instead of a solo artist. What inspired this rant? Yesterday Nick Smith (co-worker, ABC co-anchor) told me to guess what the number one selling album in 2007 was. He told me he wasn't sure if they're considered pop or rock. Immediately I responded, "No. Do NOT tell me Daughtry. Please don't tell me Chris Daughtry has the number one selling album in the entire year." And it was true. I immediately had to clarify to Nick, "Daughtry is strictly pop, and if anyone tells you he's rock, stab them in the face because they don't know what the hell rock is." Daughtry is about as rock as Nickelback or Creed. I'm still so disturbed by this, but then again, the laws of business would give sense to the situation. As much as I hate this fucker, I can't really think of an artist that was more promoted than him through American Idol, AI commercials, radio, and a barrage of sickening commercials promoting his album. Chris Daughtry, if you're reading this, I demand on behalf of the REAL rock community that you only accept your number one billboard award under the condition that nobody refers to your band as being in the rock genre ever again. We see right through your rock facade, you sniveling popstar. Come clean, Mr. Daughtry! You are living a lie, and the rock community cannot stand for it, and will not stand for it! On an entirely unrelated note, I saw "I Am Legend" last night and I thought it was awesome. It's most definitely gonna be one of those movies like "The Village" and "The Exorcism of Emily Rose" that's going to get reamed by morons who could care less about the story because they'll just be disappointed that it wasn't 'scary enough.' In fact, the very first thing I heard as I stood up after the movie was someone saying, "They had so many opportunities to make it scarier and they didn't." Dude, it's PG-13... if you wanna see something scary, pick something that the law requires you to be at least 17 to see, dipshit. If you're interested in the actual STORY itself (ooh, what a concept!), go see it. 1 comment go.

[11 Dec 2007|02:19pm] I wrote this essay for a Leisure and Contemporary Society class where the assignment was to predict the state of leisure in the year 2020. I may already be in danger for turning this in to my school, so I want to make this work available to anyone who wants to read it. Thank you.( Happiness in Slavery: The Theft of leisure in America ) go.

Mediaopoly [25 Nov 2007|11:20am] This was banned from NBC. If it's all supposed to be public knowledge, why would they ban this? I'm sure whoever made it at SNL got canned too. 13 comments go.

Procreation/ Religion Rant [18 Nov 2007|10:09am] This has been on my mind for a very long time, so I gotta purge myself of it (...yeah, optimism really doesn't work for me) and hopefully it'll bother me less. I can't stand that 99% of people force the idea of having kids down my throat. Okay, I get it, you like kids and they enrich your life, and they're a reward to you. Fine. That still doesn't mean that I feel the same way because in fact, I feel the exact opposite. There's way too many people in the world. I understand that the overwhelming majority promotes the idea of procreation, but my question is always, "Why?" Their response never changes. One answer I get is, "Because it's God's will that we..." and I immediately respond, "Then what's the atheist's incentive to reproduce? Wouldn't that just bring more humans into the world that reject an almighty God as their creator/savior/punisher/whatever and therefore causes a loophole in God's 'plan'?" Anytime someone brings God into an argument, it tends to kill their point because they seem to count on the fact that everyone believes, and I make it a point to reaffirm them that NOT EVERYONE BELIEVES. To me, one of the main problems with religion (and not philosophy) is that it makes people so closed-minded that they totally forget that not everyone accepts this God that is so self-evident to them. I have my beliefs and philosophies, but I NEVER forget that I'm on my own with my beliefs and only mention them WHEN PROMPTED. I wish there was an "Atheist for the Day" program for religious people in which they cannot use the word God, have to defend against the word's usage, not wear anything with religious symbols, not pray, not bless anyone, not allow anyone to bless you (yes, I say "no thank you" when someone blesses me when I sneeze because a blessing is pity, and I don't need anyone's pity), not say "thank god" or "so help me god", and live in a nation where it says "in god we trust" on all the currency, and see how it feels to be the odd man out. Maybe then they wouldn't throw around that word so much. The other response, the more common one is, "It's natural. Around the age of 25 or so, you're going to start to feel your body wanting to spread it's seed" or some crap like that. A more valid argument because it is devoid of God. My response is that it's hypocritical for us to suddenly care about nature and its intent at age 25. Buildings, computers, cell phones, government, cars, civilization, CLOTHING... any of this shit we deal with in our everyday life sound natural to you? We don't even EAT natural food for the most part unless we're made of money and can afford actual organic food (which doesn't fill you up more than junk, despite the health-nuts claims). the fact is, we've strayed way too far from nature to act like it still governs us somehow beyond just genetics and hormones. Back before civilization when we only lived by our primal urges, it would make [more] sense to procreate, not so much in the year 2007. Not to mention, these damn people seem to forget that having children is a personal choice and that thousands of people throughout the ages have chosen not to do it. If it makes sense to you to be born into captivity, go to school your whole life until you're done with it, work the rest of your life, have kids and throw all your time, attention, focus, and money away just to raise some batch of parasites, die still in captivity, and the cycle repeats because you procreated, then by all means, DO IT and leave me the fuck alone! However, I think there's more to life than that. My plan is tweaked: born into captivity (against my will), school all my life until I don't need to put up with it anymore (against my will), start a business (my choice) or work for the man (against my will), save money for MYSELF (not for kids, not for their college fund. by choice), move the fuck out of this country because it's leading the way for a police state government (by choice, though I believe all countries will eventually follow unless we do something about it), open my coffeeshop/bar and live the rest of my life FREE at any cost. I will no longer be enslaved by school, the corporate world, or by children (the ultimate financial burden which keeps you stuck in the vicious cycle forever). I'll pay taxes for my business, but only until the radical change comes. The day they decide RFID implants are mandatory for world citizens (which effectively destroys cash as it will all become electronic), I'll execute Operation "Live free or die" in which I will ensure I never become anyone's slave, even if it means I'll die doing it. If you ask me, having kids is not much better than being enslaved in the first place. The only thing worse than slavery is "perceived freedom". Plus, how the fuck would I raise a kid anyway? I don't believe in right, wrong, good, evil, government, or religion! Children need structure to grow up and become educated, but I'm against structure so it would either be a failure or I sacrifice myself as a personality. "Sit down, my child, I want to talk to you about religion and philosophy. You see child, most people believe there's an all-knowing, all-seeing, all-perfect, all-good, all-unlikely, all-unproven deity named 'God' or 'Allah' or 'Jehovah' that looks over everything you do and helps you, but sometimes isn't there at all, and is sometimes vengeful and terrifying and asks for your love and money regardless. Others believe a human being named 'Jesus' is this almighty demiurge and that he died for your sins but is still alive somehow? And some people think that there isn't necessarily a deity looking over us (but there might be), and that nature in itself is more transcendent than a god and should be respected as we will all be a part of it one day, whether in this life or the next. Some people think that nature in itself is a god, and that there are multiple other almighty gods in addition to it like Hecate which bestowed the gift of magick to mankind, that should be worshiped monthly by hanging out by yourself in nature, or with an animal friend, and lightly intoxicating yourself with alcohol or other substances. Some people believe in Kali, a demiurge with many arms and legs that is both the loving creator and vengeful destroyer of the world in an endless cycle and that he is to be worshiped by smoking a compound made of cannabis plant resin out of a clay tube called a chillum. Some people believe cannabis plant consumption is a means of prayer and meditation for people of any religion. Some people don't believe that God, or his evil opposer Satan are real, and some people take it to the next level by labeling themselves Satanists to gain power through people's fear of a word and the non-existent monster they associate it with. Some people believe Jesus left them a new holy book in the 1900s telling them that they can have as many wives as they want and that they'll get a planet for each member of their family when they die and to spread the word all over the Earth using bicycles, even though it's rude to force your beliefs upon people... but that's totally a fake religion anyway so don't worry about it. Basically, it's all a bunch of fake stories to try and mold you into a better person, so you can either pick one you like the most or not pick one at all and make your own beliefs. All you need to remember is that you are a good person no matter what anyone else tells you, and NEVER let them drag you to a church, temple, synagogue, mosque, or any kind of house of worship IF YOU DON'T WANT TO! I don't care if they tell you theres pizza, games, movies or whatever, they want you there for one reason only: to brainwash you. No matter what you decide to believe (or "truly believe" as some people put it), it really doesn't matter at all because no one's ever proved a religion or philosophy as the proper one before and never will. I will say though, it makes life a LOT easier to just not believe in God. I mean, it's your choice, but I'm just saying that you have to follow all kinds of rules if you choose to believe in God. You know those Jimmy Dean sausages you like so much? You're not allowed to eat those if you're a Muslim or a Jew. The advantage to having a religion is you get to celebrate holidays, but atheists can always make up their own holidays to celebrate whenever they want." Is that what you people want me to tell a 4-to-6-year-old when they ask me about religion? Because that's exactly what I'd say. I don't even have to tell you what I'd tell the child about the government, about school, about work, and about society as a whole. Besides, I don't like having anyone do anything against their will, and giving birth, to me, is the prime example of forcing someone to do something they didn't ask for: creation. I understand that it's not possible to consent someone for creation, but the way I've felt about being alive my whole life makes me feel that's it's absolutely not fair to force someone to be a part of all this bullshit when they didn't have to be. So to sum that up, no kids for Ramsey because 1) religion means less than nothing to me, 2) nature is not an excuse, or else we'd all be stark naked, cashless, and fighting eachother for scraps of food, 3) kids are perpetual debt, which is not ideal for someone wishing to escape the country as quickly as possible, 4) I'd poison an otherwise non-existing (and therefore, innocent) human being and force the curse of life upon them, and 5) I'd benefit the world by less need for child protective services, and more importantly, less human beings in the world to crowd everything up. 7 comments go.

Victory [17 Nov 2007|11:47am] It's official, ABSINTHE IS LEGAL AGAIN IN THE UNITED STATES!!! I'm ecstatic! Finally, no more having to pay at least $100 total per bottle (with expensive shipping)! That means Mansinthe will probably be sold in the United States relatively soon, which really is an excellent absinthe that I recommend to both beginners and absintheurs. Oh man, I didn't think that BevMo could be any more perfect, but soon it will not only have an immaculate collection of beers and liquors from all over the world, but absinthe from all over the world too! Fuck yes! I need to get a bottle today. There's even a high-end brassery and French restaurant here in San Francisco called "Absinthe" that serves it, so I'll have to check it out. Wow, there might actually be hope for this country. So we got one drug that was banned because of stupid violent stupid urban legends and lies reinstated and I didn't think anyone was even lobbying for it, so let's work on the BIG one now! There's one more law that the people do not want to be enforced. LEGALIZE IT!! 1 comment go.

[11 Nov 2007|01:42pm] I made my first YouTube video. I dedicate it to William Cooper, Hunter S. Thompson, Princess Diana, Dr. David Kelly, John F. Kennedy, and everyone else who has been permanently silenced by the government. 2 comments go.

Manipulation by Textbook [10 Nov 2007|10:46am] [ mood | annoyed ] I just posted this on the forum to my online International Business class. I feel the message is important enough to put on my journal for anyone else to see (or stumble upon): This has been bothering me the past few chapters and I can't sit back and ignore it anymore. The powers that be are using this textbook to implant ideas in our student minds so that we accept the inevitability of a one-world government, and I deliver this warning solely for the benefit of my peers because when you are informed, ignorance is no longer an excuse. I'm not saying to boycott the text (because we all need to pass this class or we wouldn't be here), I'm saying DO YOUR OWN RESEARCH and don't take the word of the textbook for gospel! You can't always trust the information that they want you to believe! Ch 8, p240 (bottom): "...it is even possible that the North America economies will one day adopt a single currency.... Fischer noted that although this could be difficult for both Canada and Mexico to stomach politically, in the long run he expects to see one currency for all or North America." ----Anyone heard of the North American Union? Google it! Bush, Fox (President of Mexico), and Martin (PM of Canada) have already met in 2005 to discuss plans to merge Canada, The United States, and Mexico into one country in the year 2010, yet it's nowhere in the news, nowhere in the textbook, and is happening completely without support of the people! Ch 8, p230 (top): "A group of nations currently taking steps in this direction (political union) is the European Union." ----The book says the EU is trying to move towards a Political Union, which means a SINGLE GOVERNMENT in addition to the single currency of Europe. Now what would happen if all of Europe merged and all of North America merged? Who's to say The European and North American Unions won't be merged? That's already being planned! The Asian Union is also being formed and the African Union already exists. They're planning to merge all the world nations into one police-state government and they're trying to make us accept it with an array of propaganda and media, including [but CERTAINLY not limited to] the textbook. As for the "collapse of the gold standard" on page 297, that's not how it really happened. The gold standard hasn't existed since loooong before the first World War. In the middle ages or so, the early forms of banks held gold and silver for their clients and gave them paper certificates that they can redeem for their precious metals at any time. Upon noticing that people had the tenancy to exchange the certificates with each other (the first paper money) and rarely ever came back to claim their gold, they began giving out more certificates than they actually had gold in the bank. Today, banks are legally allowed to lend out 10x more money than they actually have in the bank! Our own US currency only had value until 1913 when it was obliterated by the formation of the Federal Reserve Bank. THE FED IS NOT A GOVERNMENTAL INSTITUTION, IT'S A PRIVATE BANK! Look into it! Google "Federal Reserve Fraud" and learn the truth! Andrew Jackson fought against the Fed for the entirety of his presidency and was nearly assassinated because of it! Jefferson warned us against having a central bank! I do not claim to have all the answers for everything, I only claim that the answers we're been fed all our lives are BULL! Since this is in the "Questions" section, here's my question to my fellow students and Papa Joel (who I do not intend to offend, and apologize if I already have): Why do we just let this happen, even when we know what's really going on? 3 comments go.

NoCompromise™ [07 Nov 2007|11:38am] It seems that nowadays going on a diet is the trendy AND socially acceptable thing to do. When there's so many to choose from, how do you pick the right one for you? All the diets involve sacrificing something you otherwise would have indulged in, like the South Beach diet, Atkins, all-organic, no preservatives, no alcohol, red wine only, peanut butter diet, no eating before bed, etc, etc, etc... People go on diets to lose weight... secondarily. The PRIMARY reason people diet is to feel good about themselves! Why not adopt a diet that allows you to be you and nothing more or less? Introducing, the NoCompromise™ Diet! Why check nutrition facts? Why keep track of "points" and calories? Why cut back on drinking? Why deprive yourself from what you really want to be doing? Why add new rules to live your life by when you're already stressed out and have too much shit to deal with already? Well now you can fit into society because you're on a diet, but not have to worry about compromising anything! With the revolutionary new NoCompromise™ Diet, you can eat, drink, smoke, snort, or pop anything you want, as long as it's what you want to be doing! "But Ramsey, I don't understand... how do you lose weight with the NoCompromise™ Diet?" Weren't you paying any attention? Losing weight is a secondary reason to dieting, number one is to FEEL GOOD ABOUT YOURSELF. I ask you, what could possibly make you feel better than doing anything and everything that you desire to do without any restrictions imposed upon you? You may or may not lose weight, that really doesn't matter, the point is you live for you and if you die today, you'll be content in knowing that you never compromised who you are for the petty reason of fitting in with society. "But Ramsey, I don't wanna go on a diet to fit in with society, I want to diet to be healthy." Healthy? Who said you're not healthy? Do you FEEL unhealthy? "Healthy", like "good", "bad", and "right" is a relative term with different definitions to different people. Sure there's medical research that organic foods are better for your body, fats lead to obesity, and goddamn near everything causes cancer... but that's not relevant to the point. If you want to live in fear (a.k.a. "Take the safe route"), listening to every speck of information ever to come out of a doctor and take every pill they tell you to swallow is the way to go. If you want to die knowing that you lived to your own standards and no-one else's, then you need the NoCompromise™ Diet! Would you rather be a renegade lion who meets his end at the hands of a poacher, or a cattle raised in captivity eating what its owners force it to eat until you're slaughtered with the rest of your peers? Cattle never get to see the other side of the fence. go.

[18 Oct 2007|11:17am] I think optimism is really overrated because after a while you stop thinking "in reality" and start thinking "in theory," which I consider extremely dangerous (which is why I hate school, religion, and the news so much). It doesn't matter whether you look at the glass half full of half empty, all that matters is whether you choose to drink the rest of the water or re-fill it (or both). go.

Waking Up Blows [15 Oct 2007|11:51am] [ mood | annoyed ] I briefly touched on this in my last post by saying, "I still don't understand why it's part of our society to wake up early to go to school and work and shit, why don't we get a choice as to when we wake up? That would make quality of work better for the employee, the business, AND the customer." I still have more ranting to do on that subject... Why do we wake up early? It's pretty universal (or at least national) that people have to wake up between 8 and 10am for school or work, but why is that? Who decided that those hours are the proper time to get the world going? I'll tell you who: the fucking morning people! Because there happens to be a handful of people that functions well in the morning, they decided that perhaps everyone should be at their level and wake up ass-early with them. I've heard someone say that she's a morning person because she wants to get shit done earlier in the day to have more time for herself later. Good point, but my problem with that is that I consider the time I'm asleep to be MY TIME more than anything else I do. When you sleep, you're not compromising anything you want to do (unless of course you don't want to be asleep, which is a common problem for me). It's really hard for me to keep up with this shit. On top of the late hours of the night being my real "me time", I feel more awake at night than I do during the day. Why? Because I always have to wake up way fucking earlier than I really want to, that's why!! I mean, we KNOW for a fact that there are kinds of people out there who are up and at 'em bright and early, and those of us who would rather keep our temporary coma going for as long as possible before we have to face the real world again. We KNOW this, so why is society so one-sided on this? Why the hell don't those goddamn fucking morning people who set this stupid policy wake up early and go to work themselves while the rest of us get to sleep in and come in later?! Does that not make sense?! It's seriously beyond me why the world doesn't work that way. If people acknowledge that insomnia is an existing condition, and that people acknowledge that people indeed suffer from it, then WHY THE FUCK isn't it treated like any other disease or disability?!?! I don't give a fuck what people say about treating it: "exercize, melatonin, valerian, eating right, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah," the fact of the matter is sometimes INSOMNIA DOESN'T ALWAYS GO AWAY! IT'S NOT ALWAYS TEMPORARY! No I don't exercize, no I don't eat anything healthy, but I would much rather be up late at night by my own terms than having to compromise myself to try and sleep earlier because the rest of society thinks that's wht I should do (and shame on you if you think that's not right because then you're clearly part of the problem, you discriminatory piece of shit). My point is that if the cripples still get to opperate vehicles (RIDICULOUSLY slowly, on that note. If they believe in God, and they believe that everything happens for a reason, then why the hell do they drive cars when clearly it's not part of God's plan that they continue to contribute to traffic?), and they get their own special parking spots, and they don't have to pay parking meters, and special needs and disabilities are required to be accomidated in school and work, then who the fuck is to say that insomniacs cannot be accomidated to their needs and must do everything possible to fit in the mold like everyone else? It's seriously fucking discrimination, and I need to find other insomniacs to unite and help move this cause forward. 6 comments go.

Aha [10 Oct 2007|10:45am] [ mood | cranky ] I think I figured out why I've been suffering from insomnia for the past 6 or 7 years or so, the very reason I associate being awake more with darkness and moonlight than with the daytime; the same reason I'm becoming increasingly more exhausted, directed-attention fatigued, depressed, and irritable the past couple of weeks or so. The reason is actually quite simple, I have no idea why it didn't make sense to me until just now. It's because the night is MY time. I'm not saying I'm nocturnal, I'm saying that I have to invest so much time and energy allll day (and evening, often times)into school and work that the only time I have for myself is late at night, which is why I never really have a desire to sleep before midnight or 1am... but I could easily stay up till 2 or 3 if I don't force myself to take sleeping pills to get rest for the next long day ahead of me. I feel like a slave in my own body and I can't fucking stand it, this isn't who I am. I don't WANT to go to school and have to keep up with all the fucking work they shove down my throat, I don't WANT to go to work and deal with anyone or anything, and I most definitely DO NOT WANT to wake up early!! I still don't understand why it's part of our society to wake up early to go to school and work and shit, why don't we get a choice as to when we wake up? That would make quality of work better for the employee, the business, AND the customer. That's beside the point though, I'm completley frustrated and morose about not living my life for myself. My philosophy is that I would rather die by my own rules than live under anyone else's, and distributing my time and brainpower to things I don't give a FUCK about is basically a total contradiction of that. Everyone dies, we all know this, so why do we waste so much time not living for ourselves? I hate being trapped in the system; you need to go to school to get a job, you need to go to work to make money, and you need money or you can't do a GODDAMN FUCKING THING that you want to do because nothing is for free in the world. It's a viscious cycle. School for work, work for money, money for life, and then I have no time left for myself and end up staying up late just for the simple fact of knowing that it is MY time and I have control of my own life, even if it's only a few hours at a time. I vow that I will not be in this rut forever. I'm a renegade, and I WILL break free from the system. Owning your own business is the easiest way in the world to do exacly what you want. I will be my own boss, I will manipulate people into coming into my place of business and buying my products, I will make money consistently enough to live comfortably and not have to worry about compromising anything in my life. The only problem is that I don't know how I'm going to keep myself sane over the next 9 or 10 years until I'm my own boss. I'm thinking I need to tighten down my time budgeting and create a business to sustain me until then. 10 comments go.

The Truth [07 Oct 2007|05:57pm] With all the shady and questionable things that happen in our world-- particularly in our own country, but not specifically-- it's been making me wonder about the way the world really works. I never thought that the world actually works through the legal systems us common folk are led to believe. My father, a Palestinian Muslim, naively joined the Freemasons and I've been wondering ever since what they are really about. My dad would tell me it's kind of like a fraternity who does charity and other things and that that's all there really is to it, but I've looked through the literature they gave him, including some initiation ritual in which you have to be shirtless and swear that if you ever reveal the secrets of the Masonic rite, that you will cut off your left breast with a sword and feed your heart to the dragon. Anyone in the order will tell you it's all in fun, but I couldn't honestly believe that the rich and powerful elite, the 32nd and 33rd degree masons, do it just for the hell of it. It would be ridiculous to think that's all there is to this centuries-old secret society. I've been learning a lot about the Freemasons, The Skull and Bones Club, The Illuminati, and the supposed secret way the world works. Most people call this conspiracy theory because it comes off as preposterous because we're so used to the way in which we believe the world works that we label anything else a conspiracy. Be that as it may, for the first time, I have full clarity. I understand everything now, it's all completley connected. The US presidency, the staging of 9/11, the Nazi rise to power in Germany, the hidden meanings in our currency, the New World Order, it's all connected. It makes more sense to me than any of the overly intellectualized babblings of textbooks I've ever read about government or history. I wanna share this with anyone who actually took the time to read this. This is most definitely worth watching, whether you believe in this or not, even for the sheer entertainment and fascination value. Watch, and ask yourself what you believe. Bohemian Grove Exposed: Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Part 7 And isn't it interesting that the streets around the capital building make it into the shape of an owl, the form of Moloch which the members of the Bohemian Club worship. More importantly, it's an owl perched on top of a pyramid (a very common Masonic/ Illuminati symbol for hierarchy, just like on the back of every 1 dollar bill). More importantly still, is the symbolic significance of the Capitol Building being in the "belly of the beast"... And here's the demon God yet again on the dollar bill (which is just FILLED with hidden New World Order symbols)... Coincidence? Not considering the Bohemian Club logo: And of course, the giant Molech statue at Bohemian Grove being worshipped: That's all for now. I'm not even going to get started on 9/11 and how the twin towers and WTC7 are the first 3 steel buildings in the history of civilization that ever collapsed from "fire". WTC7 wasn't even hit by anything. 12 comments go.

Nugget of Wisdom [31 Jul 2007|06:02pm] Life is just like Mario Kart 64. We all start off at relatively the same spot, even though some people really have better starts than others, and we race and sabotage our way to the finish. It doesn't matter how well you do in the first laps because karma will kick in and your competitors will just screw you over with their shells and lightning. In the first rounds, you're just trying not to get left behind, not trying to win just yet. But the last round, that actually means something. In the last round, it doesn't matter how well you've been doing or even how shitty you've been doing... all that matters is how you use your items in the last round. The specific item you get doesn't mean a damn thing, it's HOW you use your item that determines whether you win or lose. When life gives you banana peels, use them as a shield instead of just tossing it somewhere on the track. Life is a video game; be offensive, be defensive, and never pass up opportunities 2 comments go.

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